Work or what!?-January 26, 2007

Friday, January 26, 2007
Work or what!? Current mood: grateful Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
I was in shock. Absolute shock. I don't know why. I had been told it would happen. Everyone of us had been told it would happen. But, still we held out hope. I put a little sign on my back and showed it to everyone. Trying to be funny. People would look at me and agree and smile with that strained sort of smile. And so my emotions were in chaos. My whole body had that heavy, warm feeling. So, I walked or drove around the plant on my forklift to try to calm down. There were so many of us that was fearful and angry. We had gotten the notice that we had the mandatory layoff with no chance of being recalled. What were we going to do? A little group formed when the bosses were not around. I worked with mainly men. So, there was that angry held back kind of mood. But, the underling emotion was the fear that penetrated into our very bones. What are you going to do? I told them that I was going to look into going back to school. But, what if it didn't work out? I guess I would try to get a job. But, where? There were hundreds of us being laid off. With our plant laying people off, it caused a ripple and other businesses were affected and laying off people as well. Where would we go? I knew that the job market would be saturated with desperate people. This was the most money I had ever made per hour. Now, there was that big possibility that I would soon have to find a job and take a pay cut. How was I going to provide for myself? Would I have to move back in with my parents? The Lord knows that I have nothing to fall back on. What if I looked into the schooling thing and it didn't work out? I could feel my very being falling back into heaviness. That depressive spirit was starting to soak in. I prayed. I reached out to other Christians at church. I even filled out that little card that asks: "How can we pray or rejoice for you this week?" I went to my home groups. I found others that had been affected. Times like this, it is so important to have friends. And those that can lift you up in prayer. The day before school started I was approved for the program to go back to school. It was a close one! I can not tell you how grateful I am. I praise God! Without the program, I would be unable to afford to go back to school. Only God could make a way for something like that.